This blog a lot like me, it is a work in progress. This blog is supposed to be about my mental health condition and how it effects me. To help others and myself by talking about things openly regardless of stigma and prejudice that can attract in todays society of rampant disablism (Often by those claiming to be “helping” with disability related issues like those mentioned) I am really not a social person and have managed my condition by being reclusive and prefer to be reclusive in my daily life. Most of the time I only go out to get the supplies necessary to get by. I spend most of my time in depression, then there a short periods of heightened mood in which I am more social and outgoing but this is only brief. During the last 7 months I have been harmed seriously by the DWP and Atos actions, in relation to PIP. I had become suicidal over this on more than one occasion and made one attempt impulsively which was interrupted luckily. The DWP were informed of this, by me and others and they chose to ignore this and have not actually even responded to any of my letters in all those months. They just randomly booked an Atos assessment with 9 days notice (I should next be attacked after January 2018 according to DWP’s own decision but I pointed out a mistake), my GP refused on medical grounds, so they rebooked it for 9 days again and claimed to not have gotten the evidence to prove so despite my Advocate and MP, who actually has a copy of the evidence yet they did not try to obtain the evidence as it would undermine their own position and they would have no ability to punish me for non attendance of the one 9 days later, against Doctors orders.
The MP otherwise has given up and did not seek to provide evidence to the DWP but he is a Tory who voted for the ESA cuts, that and because it will take too much time to help me, but has agreed to forward this to Ombudsman in due course. His last piece of advice was essentially to just end my claim and try again later. Which is why I would rather have an independent investigation into their maladministration. Not a politically biased one. The delay of evidence will likely result in them seeking to end my claim anyway, but the form only says if I don’t have good reason. I have lawful reason. My next letter from GP has been sent 3 times, 1 by recorded delivery, and 1 time to Atos also but they told me not to send it to them, just to the DWP but they cant refuse evidence if its relevant and they cant tell an MP his word is not good enough either although maybe that’s because politicians lie so much but I doubt that’s the motivation. They also refuse to provide an email address for evidence, or even a fax because that would not benefit the people, and would make it harder to use time delays just like politicians do to further an agenda and close claims because people missed the assessment with valid reason.
My advocate also told them of this letter and he had seen a copy, but they didn’t want to know and said it has to be sent in, scanned onto the system then processed at each stage taking time. I am convinced they know they have messed up with my case and done me provable and serious harm. They do know and have been made aware of the effect on my health and have continued on the same course after being warned that would be the exact outcome. I wrote them a letter telling them if I took my life, it was because of their actions and lack of them. I now believe they are trying to undermine me now to avoid fault as they are refusing evidence and trying to overrule my Doctor and actively chose what evidence suits them to retrospectively justify their position just like the government is with emergency legislation. I don’t think its paranoid at this stage to feel targeted, I tried to negotiate with them over 7 months, no reply. They had no answer and that is why, they are waiting to see if I die or fold it seems., I wont give up. The time for self doubt on this is over. My self doubt and lack of confidence has been used as my own sword turned against me like so many others Well I have snatched it back and will defend myself from any attacks as I defend thousands upon thousands like me across the country who are not armed. I am, with tooth, claw and sword. I wont surrender.
When I call up the DWP I wont speak to a decision maker on the phone, only the initial customer service types who help with basic issues. This is because I want it in written form because they have lied to me and spoken to me, and my partner like shit on the phone and they cant so easily do that in the written form as I will have a record and they cant be vocally condescending and rude as easily by letter without betraying their prejudice. They can also “lose” their recordings or try to refuse to provide it unless being used against a claimant of course. I advise you all do the same if also in this boat, and refuse to speak to them outside the initial call handlers who can give updates and take your information. The decision makers I wouldn’t bother without a third party, and watch the grief even they will get if they call up to help, as its very validating.
If it wasn’t for my GP, I probably wouldn’t be here now. He assured me I wouldn’t be attending this current assessment and is supporting me. In fact he said “Over my dead body” to comfort me when I began having a breakdown in a GP visit and shared my plan of killing myself in an Atos assessment to stop the evil bastards and put some blood on their hands that would be harder to wash off so quickly, as there are a great many like me with mental or physical conditions that have died at home, often alone. GP appointments should be 5 minutes, I was in there over half hour until he knew I was calm and reassured me. My GP wrote another note giving me a three month recovery window and stating I would not be fit to attend assessments during this time, to allow me to recover as every Doctors visit over 7 months has revolved around this issue and he has supplied evidence on more than one occasion. My health has declined because the time I get is not being used primarily to focus on my condition, but rather to focus on resisting the DWP. They want to undermine the working relationship between my Doctor and me. I have an oath keeping Doctor luckily who has taken the time to understand my condition more, and listen to me and build rapport, and therefore has seen more sides to me I defensively hide in general, especially in interrogation type scenarios, its a defence mechanism that’s hard to disarm.
When being trained to survive in the SAS, the soldiers are taught to play the “grey man” during torture and interrogation and trained appear average and indistinct and not too big or not too small. Not too confident as to attract more scrutiny, but not weak either to invite abuse. I know in my heart many others like me have felt pushed into a survival situation by the current system, and the SAS confirm to us that the best way to deal with unwanted and harmful interrogations, or psychological torture is to play the grey man. This was my instinct and its in the instinct of many others when threatened. We currently have a system that subversively encourages people to play the grey man (Putting you in survival mode, where you are vulnerable and scared) and then assessing you based on your reaction, in which the “grey man” or woman is the average guy or girl and is always fit for work. Those not fit are below average by definition of the DWP and Atos. Its also worse than being taken to court if you have actually committed a crime because the decision will be decided later and you wont be able to be there for sentencing so they wont get to see you, and your family and loved ones there to protect you or look you in the eye. Also being sent to prison doesn’t result in starvation and homelessness and total social isolation. Yet this is all tolerated. What a tolerant society we have become. I think we are too tolerant of abuse and it needs to end.
Impunity, power comparable to a judge, both the health care professional and the DWP decision maker its a recipe for dead people and grieving families all over our country. Maybe that’s the plan to put others off from coming here, make it so terrible no one would want to? These people at the DWP and Atos are not trained psychologists in most cases yet are performing a role usually more suited to the Police on one hand, and a psychologist on the other, nor are they proper Doctors, a real Doctor could not keep their oath, and conscience clean and condone such practice. They are the willing enforcers working to enforce government policy, and are being financially compensated for this act of treachery against their own people.
Some are really nice people, that’s the problem. I know from past experience. There are some white hats that save many from the cruel realities, but the true reality is they are a dying breed now, being replaced with more cynical and less emotional people who will save more money than those who response to human suffering, which costs money. It also makes the whole thing a macabre and sadistic lucky dip. Even if you win, it comes at a heavy price. That’s a symptom of sickness of our society, disabled people are now judged wholly on their worth financially, not humanly and despised and blamed for their “cost to the rest”. Any monetary they get now, they must pay a moral price, a social price, a mental price and an emotional price. This is the definition of a human rights violation. The sooner this changes the sooner those good people at the DWP can live in a decent work environment instead of feeling secretly ashamed, and the ones that are proud should raise red flags over their suitability in such a role.
They claim to be looking for cheats and fakers, so criminals then, yet they have no training in criminal psychology or behaviour and so will generalise. You cant tell me the people who made this system didn’t know this? Not if I know this, not if so many people know this. Are they stupid? Or is it deliberate? Those are the real questions you don’t often hear. I think its both. It is deliberate and they are stupid. They have high IQs but low EQs. All mind no heart. A recipe for disaster if they don’t possess a beautiful mind. They do not possess a beautiful mind, it is twisted and decayed. They are a political perversion.
They also know that criminals, are smart. Frauds, are smart. Its a prerequisite to successfully pull that off. They aim to catch successful fraudsters, the idiots are obvious ones are easily caught. The smart ones are a lot harder. The problem is with this assumption. Its the mother of a big fuck up. If you look for intelligence to mean likely fakery and evidence of wrongdoing, you will actually end up enforcing class warfare at the same time as attacking vulnerable groups as it will discriminate against the intelligent but poor people in a way intelligent but wealthy people would not get, as they do not need such help and would not be subjected to such treatment, and would not tolerate it and be able to fund big legal cases to end the matter. The intellectuals among the disabled, if discredited in this way will not be listened to and can be attacked and marginalised, when they inevitably defend those other disabled people like them. Its too well planned to be accidental. I think this is the product of hate made policy, and many who don’t see this are weak minded political pawns easily reprogrammed by rebuttals or distracted by deflections or who have a dog in the Tory race of the pursuit of power and greed at any cost. Its telling they are so focused on hunting down fraudsters. I think this is projection, as they are looking to be the real election fraudsters a complete disgrace, which if true should land them long sentences in prison for those guilty of subverting democracy. Its is actually treason.
Not only this, but the founding principle they sold (Get it?) us on to justify austerity was a need to repay the debt. Austerity for some people was the solution. Lets not pretend austerity is applied equally. If you believe this then the best course of action is to call for some medical assistance as its hard for me to know if you are morally insane, or experiencing profound psychosis as I am not a Doctor. So did this selective austerity actually pay down the debt? No. The debt is over doubled. What this clearly means is, this government, the Tories , this present Conservative bunch have collectively enforced in government, via parliament a reverse Robin Hood. They have looted this country and taken from the most vulnerable and worked up from there and given it to themselves and large financial interests to set up their positions in the future. Look at he-who-must-not-be named-because-its-rhymes-with-a-profane-word-for-a-despicable-person. The one who is destroying the NHS is very wealthy and continues to increase wealth and consolidate power. He is narcissistically immune to all criticism, and earlier he recommend privatisation openly in a book. He was hand picked to destroy the NHS and kept in role for this function. The Tories have a public reason for their policy, and the actual reason. He is essentially the chaff of a combat aircraft, deployed to break a missile lock on by the public, so if it gets too bad they just replace him so the next one gets a grace period. They did the same with Ian Duncan Smith. I am convinced his sudden change of heart was a staged attempt to display variation within Tory ranks.
If you want to know more about my condition my earlier blog posts will explain more about it and include current treatment changes although this has taken a backseat to fighting the DWP and Atos and I will return my focus back to them rather than the higher placed heads on the hydra. I have missed important appointments and my condition has worsened more than once since this dispute started due to my inability to focus on more than one issue at once and the all consuming nature of being under socioeconomic and political siege. So they have worsened my condition and many others, which I might add is another of their stupid mistakes. It costs a lot more money overall as I was managing with once monthly GP visits, and was on minimal medication. I tried hard and worked to manage the rest of the symptoms myself. So from once monthly GP visits only to keep me on the straight and narrow, they are now every 2 weeks, plus I have a mental health advocate from Rethink (Thanks guys!) who is supporting me I also had to contact the crisis team and single point of access and will be seeing the community mental health team this month and have also been referred to a primary care social worker, all a response to this. If you work out the overall cost its no wonder the idiots have doubled the debt since austerity. People need to spend money in order to live, and the economy benefits from poor people spending money, because there is a shit load of us and we tend to spend it all.
Yet the Bank of England never tries to quantitatively ease the bottom, and try some trickle up economics. Trickle down economics doesn’t work and just encourages greed from the top which will corrupt them further. Money is not governed by physical gravity, it has a gravity of its own. They understand this, and abuse it for their own gain. There kleptocrats.
We, the people at large are the real big spenders, the working and middle class, comparative to overall funds we spend the highest percentage of total funds. Its why we remain poor, or just get by but its also a source of the main blood supply of our economy as the most wealthy people could spend double or triple what they currently do and the top tiers much more and still be solvent and not threaten their stockpile. Yet there is never talk of trickle up economics, in fact many wealth elite members feel that addressing poverty is a threat to them. They accept they have a predatory model. Yet not all very wealthy people are like this, not all are the cold and isolated elite and those who are not like them should not be tarred with the same brush and instead should be celebrated as a example it doesn’t have to be the way it is.
I am duty bound by law and threat of punishments to notify the DWP of any changes that worsen my condition. So I have to contact the people I feel have abused me and my rights, and continue to do so. When you have a mental health condition this is just a cruel and unusual punishment that has been legislated and judges have even ruled this must change and some members of parliament are outraged at this War on the Ill, sponsored by a Bill designed to Kill. So I have to speak to them, these pigs. It even says I have to let them know if anything is incorrect and I have informed them it was their mistakes, delays and blatant maladministration that were making it worse, so they made it worse, then asked to see me via Atos to see if it had made it worse. Despite the mistake being, what I thought at first, a trivial one of oversight. It wasn’t oversight that are trying to bend the guidelines to suit themselves. I thought I was going crazy until I realised, being quite cut off and socially isolated I had not seen this is a systematic problem, you are lucky to have not faced it as I was during the preceding time. (In which I was progressing towards better management of my condition and planning on a way to get back to work anyway!)
Despite their records showing I have always responded negatively to interrogation, I mean inquisition, I mean assessment. I was scared of them before but I am not now. I don’t seem to have the right to remain silent. I don’t seem to able to record the proceedings without their permission and they can refuse and then take advantage of this to corrupt the process. I have no right to see a mental health specialist. Assessment by a physiotherapist? For a condition that takes trained mental health Doctors an average of 10 years to diagnose. They must be having a giraffe mate. I am screwed and anyone with a mental illness, or physical illness depending on a whim. Its a kangaroo court and they can lie with impunity, be abusive and condescending and destroy someone’s entire life, their future and their reality and thus their sanity in less than an hour. I am not scared now, I am angry, I have seen they are like the Wizard of Oz, all booming in voice and illusions but pathetic cretins in reality. You also need a brain, a heart and courage and ideally also the love of a good woman (or man I was speaking for myself) helps to overcome the dark wizard of Oz. Power lies where the people believe it does, that’s from Game of Thrones. It was said to Tyrion. It was also said that small people can cast the biggest shadows, which also applies to the shadowy Tories who are also being investigated for election fraud that doesn’t seem to be mentioned by many main stream press outlets like it should be. That which thrives in the shadows, falls apart when dragged into the light. My aim is to light them up.
Lets get back to incorrect decisions that deny key facts in order to offer less support than required by law under PIP guidelines. We have to go to court to appeal it. Well not strictly true, first we get the great privilege and honor of asking the same people who just screwed us, if they think that they screwed us. From people told not to admit fault unless there is no other option based on overwhelming facts. Then if they don’t think they screwed us we can go to court, which may also screw us as some tribunal judges have also worked for the DWP (Prosecuting benefit fraud) and this is not prevented and kept separate. This process is 6-12 months of your life down the toilet win or lose and in this time you will have to focus intensely on your condition, reducing yourself to a bundle of pathology, no wonder people want to end it. You must go over all the same forms of how does your condition effect you again, and again and listen to the same piece of music over and over again on loop when you call, which also an enhanced interrogation technique used on terrorists. You should notice companies, who actually want and need your custom, don’t do this because it annoys customers.
Then attend court, or have it decided on papers. Then by the time this is finished you are often due for your next assessment soon enough so your respite will be brief and so broken and exhausted you cant face it. I truly get what people have commit suicide, I am lucky to have survived it so far. I promise you one thing, if I did do it, I would make sure they see it, witness it and therefore seek to guarantee the change that the lives of my comrades could not yet bring about. Am I saying its all done on purpose? No I am saying its clear from even a brief foray into psychology that people have subconscious motivations and acceptance of things that they may not consciously be aware. Good people can do very bad things, usually when told to repeatedly and especially if the action can be linked to providing money to provide for their families. Its insidious. Couple this with the fact that if it drives you into a hospital stay, if this is for too long it will end your PIP, and you will have to go through reassessment again on release.
I recently discovered the recent change to the guidance on suicide by the DWP. I can now sum this up in three words having experienced the sharp end of the sword that they are wielding. The three words of guidance on suicide and how to address it? Call their bluff! Not directly, they don’t say this but indirectly they will call your bluff now if you are suicidal. During assessments be sure to ask why have you not killed yourself? As this will actually put anyone who suffers in this way into a deep philosophical dilemma on which they will be judged. When you hear it, it should be outrageous, unless you are very far to the right/Tory in which case, they will think that’s the perfect “solution”. However we know other groups in the past had “solutions” for the disabled and other groups, yes the Nazi’s. Forgive me the mention of the Nazi’s, its often used as a comparison when it doesn’t fit so let me explain. There is a reason for this. Mainly because its a logical comparison, all political groups that veer further to the right end up persecuting the disabled as the first port of call, and the disabled are the first to be killed off. Usually under a program like the T4 who were also convinced they were “helping disabled people”. They were morally insane, but they were not in the throes of psychosis, they were functional and fit for work and sane by modern stands, and the T4 agents are directly comparable to the privately paid Moral insanity does not necessarily entail insanity in the classic sense, medically known as psychosis. You can be morally psychotic without being in psychosis.
I also have Jewish heritage so am particularly sensitive to systematically targeting the disabled as we disabled are the most reliable canary of a corrupt government, and usually its the Jews next so I am bloody screwed as a disabled British Jew. I don’t want to focus on this however as it should not really be relevant, well the fact the DWP actions lead to me losing 8kg in a month is relevant as skinny Jew is not a good look, and one I try to avoid unless pressed by poverty but the relevance of that part of my background ends there.
The picture below shows some of the Nazi camp staff who ran the program. Like with DWP and Atos, some are nice people but they enforce a deadly, and deluded system upon vulnerable people to serve a political agenda.
So as I mentioned earlier it was supposed to be about mental health this blog, but its a scary time for those with mental illness or physical disability in Britain and the DWP and Atos are a large, and toxic part of that experience by the way they force themselves into your life, along with the politicians who set this system up. The people did not invite this, they created their own mandate for this. Its class war. To not mention it would be a disservice to all those with disabilities and would amount to me, and us, collectively cooperating with our own persecution and to some extent enslavement (They control if we eat/drink/have shelter if we don’t obey their commands under threat of action that would cause harm – modern slavery is normalised and normalcy bias is rampant in todays time).
So it is my goal to follow in the same vein as a great Conservative leader (Also the last good one I can think of) that truly served Britain compared to the modern. Then again he was only of real use in the time of a great war, without an enemy outside the Tories always turn on poor and vulnerable. They don’t see them as their people, they see them like rats, like Katie Hopkins does immigrants and anyone else that doesn’t fit into her own worldview with no periphery. Its disgusting and disgraceful. Still, Winston Churchill (Who had many flaws, like racism!), who would probably be ashamed of the snivelling and devious sneaky pathetic, weak Tories of today who advocate these calculated cuts and abhorrent assessments. Today the enemy is at home, preferably with a disability that reduces their ability to defend themselves. Or attacking women, the bereaved, the young, the old. They are spineless, gutless and heartless and because of this we should reinvent the famous quote from the past.
We will fight them, not on the beaches or we will be declared fit for work and starved out of our castles! But we will fight them at the DWP, and we will fight them in Atos centres around the UK, we will fight them at parliament, and we will fight them online! We shall never surrender! Disabled people will outlive every single individual who played a part in this atrocity, we will live on long after they are dead. They cant kill us all its not possible politically or logistically, they don’t learn from the past. In the future they will attempt to excuse and justify their actions as they are dragged across the hot coals of public opinion, like those who supported the Iraq war are today, lets just hope it doesn’t require millions of disabled to die like it did in the past. No group in history has ever been able to wipe out the disabled, exactly like the Jews, all that tried were annihilated. Many have tried but we just keep cropping up all over the world and putting holes in the boat of eugenics. Maybe we are, in some weird way evolutions cure to psychopathic perfectionism, a cure to the arrogant and powerful that’s reveals them to be the weak ones, those that act is if they are the master race, while claiming to serve us should be forced to serve the people. They are not our masters, they are supposed to serve us not themselves. There is no master race other than the human race in its entirety. No group more precious and special than any other. We are the master species on this planet, all of us collectively. They are parasitic and stand uninvited upon the shoulders of the masses. By defeating them we also defeat their bigotry and hatred for all not like themselves. I believe bigotry and hatred trickles down. Or rather rot at the top falls down, it certainly trickles down more than the money does.
So I am taking aim and firing both metaphorical barrels at the DWP/Atos/MPs who condone these actions. Then I will reload and unload both barrels again. I will run out of breath before I run out of ammo. Until things change on this issue and they the DWP show us a white flag to mark this change in policy. Until there is a ceasefire on this issue and they end their blood pact with Atos and begin real peace talks with the disabled community. Atos should not be welcome in our country, nor Maximus. They are the true foreign intruder wiping out the disabled with the collusion of rogue elements of the DWP, dizzied by the promise of power and prestige by the politicians of our present parliamentary cabinet, its not fit to stand against a wall let alone speak for us and the cabinet is both dirty and dusty. A private company should not be paid to do this task. The NHS could do this but the problem with the NHS is, Doctors have to put their patients first, that’s why this system was create to subvert it.
We need to unite the same way other groups have, and its already happening. The tide is turning and they will soon feel the tidal wave of change forcing them out of their entrenched established positions. Solidarity with LGBT would be an idea as well as immigrants who are being persecuted, people subject still to racism and sexism. We can all unite to support the causes but the disabled people of this country need the help of these other groups first, in order to be able to them join with them in their fight. They are literally killing us, and if this becomes the norm, it will be other groups next as that’s how fascist states develop.
I will wage a political war of words on the enemy of the disabled, to match their subversive cull and clandestine war on us. The killer of thousands. The assessments as they stand are not fit for purpose, and there is no purpose they are fit for. I wonder how the Nazi party “assessed” the disabled during that time era, to see if they was “really disabled” or just scrounging and workshy. I would imagine there would be a system, it would have to be quite strict in order to not make it easy for the fakers, of course making it strict would harm the disabled but heavy anti disability propaganda would help with this and should be allowed to fester unchecked. So its not much different than the present day Nasty party with only a few decent examples to the contrary within that bunch of self-stroking Mein Kampfers. This government have taken the same powers into their hands as those in the past did, as the Nazi party did.
To assess those with disabilities on the basis of whether they are fit to work, not as individual human beings with unique and complicated circumstances varying from one to another. We all get lumped in together and in that sense, Atos is a temporary concentration camp where disabled and unwell people are funneled into their cages, because if you had to stay overnight for observation, then its obviously a tyranny. Many have agreed they have wielded such power, dangerously and irresponsibly and caused carnage to many families across Britain and no previous example in history shows this to have worked, such is the height of the arrogance and depth of the delusion they operate from. Their own knack for self preservation seems to be malfunctioning, and they are eating themselves from the inside out by taking such actions.
When more people have died as a result of this process than died in the London terror bombings, you have to take action. Those horrific attacks on our people were indiscriminate and killed many people from all tick-boxes-on-forms they make you fill in. The current government policy specifically targets vulnerable groups and discriminates against them and has been criticised by people from the world over. They are the kangaroo court of modern day Britain. Our nations reputation is being destroyed.
I even go as far to say its continuation, with the level of outrage currently, is an indicator of corruption in elements of our government and the DWP by paranoid radical element who blame-shift onto the most vulnerable and fear transparency and corrupt the word with terms like “intelligent transparency”, and repeated claims to be “helping”. Its not helping its abuse. Paedophiles claim to be “helping” and many serial killers have said the same thing. Its more scary to be harmed by someone “helping” than someone trying to harm you. These people are morally sick, deranged and should not be in power. Our societies problems are a product of rot and the top, and that is trickling down, in great mouldy, gangrenous chunks. Its disgusting.
Soon I will cover more of my experiences, particularly over the last 7 months. If anyone reading this has experienced the same, get in touch I will do my very best to respond. If anyone wants me to mention what they have done to you, how you suffered without giving your name and details I can do this anonymously as I understand what that’s like, I felt the same until recently. If anyone from the DWP or Atos would like to whistle blow on the abusive practices, please contact me. There very well could be charges or similar actions raised against these individuals in the future and cooperating now will make a large difference to your standing if this is the case. They are not worth risking your integrity and reputation for. They are really not, they will throw you under the bus as soon as it changes, and some Atos staff and probably DWP staff already have been. The people you work for will turn on you in a heartbeat to save their own neck and reputation. Come stand with us. Do the right thing because your actions will echo in your mind for the years to come. You cant blame no-one else at the end of the day.
It may seem harsh to some, that I refer to them as an organisation (Not any individual human being) as an enemy, however when the actions of any individual, group or organisation have repeatedly endangered your life and continue even after being informed by medical professionals you would be a foolish individual to not consider them a serious threat, and thus an enemy. They wont be my enemy, or the enemy of the disabled for long though. Because they will wave the white flag and surrender because they wont be able to continue it as disability is something that effects all people regardless of other divisions, they have made a grave tactical error, even from their perspective, its foolish. It is because of this realisation that I believe the great chink in their armour is revealed and you probably see it too, many are seeing it. To any with mental health or learning difficulties or impairments (I have both) You don’t have to be able to eloquently explain and elaborate on a subject to understand it, you don’t have to be able to explain yourself if you feel like this but cant voice or word it. You are right. We stand together. Don’t worry if you cannot fight the fight just support those who do. If you cant speak out, support those who do. Its very exposed now and they are attacking many other groups also. They tempt a revolution that all British politics will be forced to embrace and accept. They tempt a British spring. Seek out their weakness and exploit it, there time for mercy and passivity is gone, do not be a docile acceptor of persecution. Raise your fist in the air and say no. Declare it to yourself and resist. You are not the problem, and they don’t have a solution. They are the problem and we are the solution. Remember all those who fought against that evils of the past, and recognise our day and time is not immune from these forces, they are still around. It must be faced head on, they fear this direct approach and it is why they divide us and they cannot win in a direct political confrontation with us if we unite.
I will fight them or die trying and I’m prepared to die for what I believe in. I don’t mean I will harm anyone, for the people doing the harm are just stupid, foolish pawns in a chess game, and they are not worth it, they are deplorable. Yes you DWP/Atos minions of the Tory party. You know you are guilty, if you don’t, then you are the more dangerous and sadistic type most likely. You individuals are helping to enforce austerity upon the vulnerable and should seek more morally enriching ethical employment if possible you are after all fit for work are you not? So try doing some actual work to help society, not destroy the fabric of it and complain when you feel guilty or get blamed for doing it. For the harsh ones that don’t care at all. Go get a real job you useless bums!
I believe that attacks on the disabled are as bad as racial attacks, sexist attacks and attacks on someone’s sexuality and too many harbour hatred and prejudice against the disabled and they are too weak and pathetic to be open with these views, like some racists and instead go about it in a sneaky underhanded way, by the backdoor. The Tory way. The DWP may seem like a great lumbering behemoth that cannot change direction that runs over everything in its path, and it is. We however are the people, and we can change direction together and communicate to those responsible, those steering the beast, that it is destroying the basis of a free and equal society, while trumpeting those values. If it does not change course, it will be overthrown in due course as it would eventually seen to be mocking those very values it claims to promote, and in time will reveal its disdain for the vulnerable and disadvantaged. No behemoth can withstand the might of the collectivisation of people with a common goal. All the freedoms we have were won, in conflict against those who would deny them and enslave us.
I will leave it here for now, mainly because sleep is essential not because I have run out of things to say. The gloves are off, I’m going for a brutal knockout on my oppressors and although I am an underdog, I will keep getting up until I either win, they surrender or I am killed in the ring. I am willing to die for this, because for so many times in my life I have nearly ended my life over nothing, now that I have truly found a purpose and something to believe in, something to live for outside of my own experience and reality I am willing to die for it if I have to. Quite ironic in a messed up way. Well I am styling myself as a Phoenix, and although nothing or no one can save me from the return of depressions and being turned to ash having burnt out again. Nothing or no one can stop me rising up again, stronger and brighter with a fire and passion that will both burn and light up my enemies who lurk in the shadows and darkness and warm my friends and comrades in this fight against an evil of our time.
How do we fight them? The best way to defeat an opponent who has disarmed you, and used your own weapon against you if you survive long enough to regain your weapon is to disarm them and defeat them with their own weapon. Its ironic as the sword you shall use, unless its steel but any material will do here as its metaphorical. The main weapon of this current ideology is politics, everything else is a waste of time. Fighting them on any other front is difficult, as they will use politics to increase their hand in that game. Fight them head on, face to face for they are cowards and move in secretive and sudden moves and slip in changes under cover of darkness and lack the testicular (or ovarian if female) fortitude to challenge anything head on unless there is a gang of them and popular support. The best thing to do is light them up like Blackpool illuminations. That’s why peaceful and democratic action and protest is the best retaliation against this monstrosity of a democracy.
Down with the Tories, and we need to prevent such actions being taken again in the future as current legislation or international treaties have clearly not done enough, although those international bodies have recognised our collective plight.
I should sleep. As if its not bad enough dealing with this crap in waking life, as many others would know, you have to deal with it in your dreams too. Although its not really a dream per se, as its guided by a dark horse also known as a nightmare. By contrast I like my nightmares. The ones not created by malicious government policies I mean. Although I must confess, in my DWP Atos related nightmares I frequently massacre them all in a violent and shocking way like some crazed spirit of vengeance, hell-bound on removing them from the mortal coil in order to save lives, despite the dark cost.
I usually awaken from these dreams laughing, and I know that’s not a comforting sign or going to help dispel mental health stigma even with explanation of what I find funny about it. What I find funny about it, is that only in my dreams, where the possibility to be powerful exists to me do I go to any lengths necessary to solve this problem. In reality I am shocked by the reality of such measures and I find the fact the Tories are willing to go to these extremes subversively funny, as they are clearly throwbacks from a more savage and predatory time. My monster only harms other people in my nightmares. They do this for real, and I’m upset that they don’t have the guts to come knock my door, round me up and do it themselves. Cowards. You know someone is beneath scum, when a dictator that rounds up people by force looks brave in comparison to these pathetic parasitic politicians.
Sleep you fool, I’m talking to myself now and have exhibited the first sign of madness due to lack of aforementioned sleep so the battle ends for now, but the war continues as soon as my eyes open again, as it does for all those fighting for what they believing against a dark invading force. We must stand up to this political Voldemort. Ok now I have to sleep as using a Harry Potter analogy could seriously undermine my point. Although they are a bit like Voldemort as a political party the Tories, because you cant seem to kill them, they keep returning and seem to store pieces of themselves in other places you wouldn’t expect them to be.
I think I only mentioned it to seed that mythos and thus its resolution within my subconscious as its a story of the triumph of good over evil so when I lay down to sleep any dreams, sorry I mean nightmares, will involve me overcoming and killing my enemy (They was in Nazi uniforms in those nightmares, so I think I’m allowed to kill non human dream Nazi’s claiming to represent the DWP and Atos without ill judgement considering the circumstances)